Grrr....

things are a jumble here. being the trip leader is not all it's cracked up to me. i found out that the guy from Chaminade this year is best friends with the guy from last year. they must have exactly the same personality. already group members are becoming frustrated with him and i am at my wit's end. it is hard enough to deal with the culture shock and i have to contend with this. there also seem to be some weirdo politics going on here. somehow we got caught in a tug-of-war between deepahalli and chaminade in bangalore. one of the girls in the group was very unhappy that we left Deepahalli (we were only scheduled there for three days) and is trying to finagle going back there every rest day but some of the brothers are telling us that the boys are too attached to her and have cut their arms and are writing her name in blood on them. but then our leader, prema says she doesn't think it is true. i have no idea what's going on and i didn't really know how to respond to this girl's obsession with Deepahalli. i think she's got a bit of a messiah complex, thinking that she's helping them so much there because she doesn't think the brothers are all that nice to the boys... i don't know. i'm just completely confused and aggravated beyond believe with the communication here. plus, our schedule keeps getting changed because things are falling through and things that were "supposed to be arranged" turn out not to be. the group is getting frustrated with that and i really just want to tell them that they're going to have to suck it up b/c this is the way it is here. grrrr.
anyhoo, i really didn't mean to go on and on about that. there has been some amazing experiences with the people here and i am looking forward to it. i just wish i didn't have to deal with the yucky group dynamics.